I already did a "let me introduce myself" post. But this is a true question today.
Who am I?
Well, my name is Kassandra however everyone calls me Kassie. I am a sinner.
Some days I'm erratic, crazy, bratty, annoying. I have a bad attitude and I can't keep my mouth shut about certain things. I think I'm better then everyone else. I think I have no time for the important little things in life. I take advantage. I ruin people and relationships with them. I'm the reason for every bad thing that has happened in my life. I am the reason I am a failure and I have no plans in life. I am the reason bad things happen to everyone I love and care about. I suck. I'm rude. I am a genuinely terrible person. I hate myself.
Wow. It felt good to get that out. It felt good to say that out loud (or well admit on paper where this will hopefully be posted) that this is what I've thought about myself for a very long time.
Lies. Lies from the enemy that I've given space to little by little. Lies that I'm not good enough. That I will never be enough. I don't deserve the good things in my life. That I will never overcome my social anxiety. That I will end up pushing everyone away and that I will be truly and genuinely alone for the rest of my life.
As of today I refuse to let myself believe and give into those lies, to be that person. To be the person who feels like she can never get anything right.
I'm done being her. It took someone special to me telling me that this isn't what God wants me to believe to realize this. The more we as humans, the more I believe, the lies the enemy tells us about ourselves the closer and closer we get to exploding. To actually pushing everyone away. To becoming the person we fear we already are.
I can't believe those lies anymore. I can't afford it. And if you reading this are feeling that way, neither can you!
Because here's the truth, God came down, as flesh, as man, as God. He took the sin we've committed unto Him on the cross. He took it there, He kept it there and the baggage is no longer ours to carry. He bore my cross.
"Before I formed you in the womb I knew you, before you were born I set you apart; I appointed you as a prophet to the nations."
Jeremiah 1:5
God knows who you truly are. He knows you inside and out. He knows what you did yesterday, what you've done today and what you will choose to do tomorrow. He loves you anyways. He loves me anyway.
Crowder has this song, that rings so true. One of the lyrics are "Speak what is true"
Here's what true:
"I am Found, I am Yours,
I am loved, I'm made pure.
I have life, I can breathe,
I am healed, I am free. "
That is truth. That is truth that God wants us to grab hold of everyday and remember,
WE ARE LOVED.
